somewhere between a colonoscopy and bad teeth

We are nearing the end of January and already, I'm on top of my New Year's Resolution. I thought for a long time about what I wanted to accomplish in 2013. I teeter-tottered back and forth, and like most people, I always came back to the weight thing. Eat better, lose weight....you know the drill. In the end, I just decided to put it all out there and narrow it down....so, I decided I would just work on  myself.

How hard could that be, right? 
What was I thinking?  I had to pick the impossible!
I may as well had vowed to end world hunger....or achieve world peace.

To work on myself involves many things....from overall health, to my sanity (or lack of), and peace of mind.

So, for starters, I had a colonoscopy.  Yes, a colonoscopy.  Who has THAT on their list of things to do????  You may wonder what this has to do with working on myself....  a lot, let me tell you.  I've been having issues for a long time, so to rule out anything serious, this was the first item of business.   After being a complete nervous wrech for the 3 weeks leading up to this big event, it's over and everything turned up fine.  It eased my mind a little but still have a couple of unanswered questions, like.....

What the hell is wrong with me?????  Why is THIS happening?????

ok....next, the plan was to find out what exactly is wrong....maybe another doctor or a specialist but before I could come up with a plan, I started having a tooth ache.  It wasn't unbearable at first, but by now, it's got to go!  I admit, my teeth are horrible.  It's a wonder I have any teeth at all, to be honest.  I wasn't blessed with healthy teeth, and add to that, the fact that my parents didn't give a darn about my teeth when I was growing up, I've always had problems, yet have managed to stay away from the dentist as much as possible.... I would really just like to have them all pulled and get falsies.  BUT, apparently, most of my teeth are good...just not pretty.  Anyhoo.....
this tooth H.U.R.T.S.   I noticed a tiny cavity on the side, so I called the dentist and they worked me in today.  I pointed out the reason for my pain and the dentist picked and prodded at my tooth and gums, and said, "you think that's why your tooth is hurting?"

Well, Yeah.   You see that black spot?   That's a cavity, isn't it?

"Oh yes, but darlin'.... here's why your tooth hurts."

and he showed me a big frkn hole.....My tooth is just a shell of a tooth.  There is absolutely nothing under the enamel shell....just a hole.  Yucky!   He said he's amazed that the tooth hasn't just shattered at some point while I'm eating.  Great.

So, during this visit, I begged him to pull this tooth PLUS all my uppers.  And he promised me that he would not do that.  Hey, I will pay you!!!

He said "at 47, you are much too young and pretty to look like THIS" (and he sucked in his cheeks as if to have no teeth).

Uhm, Ok, that's not too pretty, Mr Dentist.  Stop it!

I showed him a couple of other tooth concerns and in the end, I'm having 4 teeth pulled next week.  2 upper back teeth, one lower and one crooked, dead tooth right in the front.  Yep, right in the front. 

He asked me if I had enough vacation days to take off work until I get my partial plate and I told him I plan on working....just taking off to go to the Oral Surgeon for the extractions....
He was surprised and asked if I was going to walk around, and go to work with a tooth missing in the front and I said YES.... I'm not scared.

He said, "but won't you be embarrassed?  You will have a tooth missing!  In the front!"

I didn't tell him that a few years ago, I left work on a Thursday flat chested, with an A-cup and came back on Tuesday, with a 36C cup, so I think I might can handle being snaggle toothed for a few days.
(true story) 

All in all, I will be glad to get my mouth issues taken care of, but it was farther down on my list of things to do this year.  Guess other things will be put aside for now.

I'm wondering why it's so much trouble and so expensive and time consuming just to exist?  I mean, seriously.   This is crazy.

I will be slowly making my way down my list this year....I should hopefully feel better by year's end.
at least, that is my goal.